Friday, 21 September 2012

1 Year & Counting (God might need to help me with the counting part, heehee). Does anyone ever get my jokes? XP

 Well, hello everyone!

Yesterday was not a great day for me. It was just one of those days where no matter what you did, things just seemed to do nothing but go wrong, and I had no control over it! My upside down cake didn't turn out very well (I like to be creative... and not read the recipe properly (insert humor)), so I let that get to me; my English homework has been getting super frustrating, plans were being broken and being changed, etc, etc. Ultimately, I was getting brought down by small things which seemed REALLY big at the time. However, at the end of the day, I had a great talk with Thomas (my amazing boyfriend), and I was able to reflect on my day as I complained about each thing that went wrong. It started to dawn on me… “God wouldn’t be very pleased with me right now” or “Did you ever think God was trying to test you?” so I started to feel a bit ashamed! I started to dig deeper in the how and whys of the situation, and came to the deep conclusion…

The past few months have been so focused on myself; on all of my own selfish reasons for getting up in the morning to do what I saw fit, I forgot to let God lead me in everything, down to the simplest things in life.

I find every once in a while; I do this to myself…
I get so caught up in my day to day busy life that I finally had my breakdown. I noticed God was not a strong presence anymore like He used to be, which started to scare me, and I ended up on my hands and knees begging God to take control again.

I haven’t had a real good cry since my dad passed away last year, so this was a true healing moment for me again. I’ve been so used to being strong for everyone, being a good example as a follower of Christ. I always end up getting caught up and forgetful of the reason why I am even here in the first place with my family and my faith. Everything slowly became self centered for me.

I was humbled and reminded of Gods saving grace for me, how amazingly loving He has been to my family. Why do I deserve every gift He has given? Why do I deserve the people He has put in my life? Well, obviously, I don’t deserve it…
I don’t deserve a single thing, which really hit me hard. God chose me and loves me so much, even though I deserve nothing, He has allowed me to worship Him, serve Him, and to one day meet Him in heaven… If that isn’t a humbling experience, I don’t know what is!

I can feel at ease knowing God is taking care of the road I walk on; calling me towards Him.

I love my Lord and Savior! He is there, readily, to lift me up when He knows I have fallen short, because we all do it every once in awhile no matter what we've been through.

Thank you guys for reading! I felt like this experience should not be left just for me to know about, but it should be shared for people to see that real things are happening daily in Christian’s lives. God is good!


Friday, 10 February 2012

My Short Stories!

Hey everyone! Aren't you excited?!? I know I am! Hehe, I promise I've had no sugar today… >.>

I have been taking English 12 this year and I am definitely having fun writing my own short stories! I thought I would share some with you quick!

Assignment: You have been wandering through the countryside. You come across an old red barn that appears to be abandoned. What an interesting old building! As you walk through the barn, you decide to write about it; there are so many sights, sounds and smells you can describe! 
Write a brief (100-150 words) descriptive paragraph that has an introduction, body and conclusion, has one indentation, and displays the elements of a descriptive paragraph discussed above. Use your imagination and stretch your vocabulary! 
Please write your paragraph below. Highlight the phrase below and start typing. The paragraph should be between 100 and 150 words.

As I walk through this old red barn, I knew it was calling me from the countryside to come and take a look. Now that I am here, I can't help but think about all of its history! Each smell and sight has its own story. The barn once held the smells of animal manure, but now all you can smell is the mold and rotten wood that has now taken its place here. 
As I walk further, I can feel the sun shining upon my face through the cracks in the roof. I can hear the wood beams creak as the wind blows through, and I can see the hay dancing and twirling lightly across the dirt floor. This all puts a smile to my face as I think about how this was once a brand new barn, built to help out a family and their farm, and now it sits alone in a big countryside, just waiting to tell its story.  I am so glad I came, and I wish I could stay longer, but I can see the sun is setting, and the moon is waiting to take its place in the sky. I will be back another day and maybe this time I can bring a friend, to share in this experience and listen to what this old barn has to say.
And here is the other one!
Here's the scenario: You've been wandering through an abandoned city. You have to get from one end of the street to the other. (The how and why I'll leave to you.) Write a one paragraph account of this one-block trip. 
Perhaps it isn't so easy to get to the other end. Maybe it is more hazardous than you first thought. Write it like a brief story, and write your topic sentence as if it's introducing a short narrative or anecdote. You might consider the paragraph as part of a larger narrative. You won't have time for detailed explanations, but hints and subtle clues will enrich your writing
Mary couldn't believe it. Out of all scenarios, her car had to run out of gas while passing an abandoned city. Mary hit her head against the steering wheel in frustration. She had just remembered she forgot to fill up her gas can before she left. Maybe she could find a running gas station around here. Nervously, she opened her door and walked to her trunk. She grabbed her gas can, then closed her doors. As she jogged to the street, she felt shivers go up her spine. This place didn't feel right. She slowly built the courage to walk further looking into every door and window preparing herself if something were to jump out and scare her. Then suddenly, she was startled by a rustling noise coming from a garbage pile. She clenched the gas can making her fingers go white. This couldn't be happening to her, this is only suppose to happen in movies!  But what jumped out of the pile made her sigh with relief. It was only a cat. She walked a bit further and saw a gas station ahead. She ran towards it and started filling up. A noise came from behind her, but as she turned around to find out what it was, nothing was there. She turned around to focus when out of no where, a face jumped into view which made her scream and fall back onto the hard cement. The face was a toothless old man, who seemed rather happy to see her. She could understand why, since she was probably his first customer in quite some time. He waddled over to where she was once standing, grabbed her can and finished filling it for her. He walked away and then vanished. Marie was still on the ground with her mouth opened with shock and fear. This place gave her the creeps, and she definitely didn't want to stay any longer. She was just happy to get out of there before something else decided to surprise her.
That's it so far! Hope you liked them!

I find I have WAY to much to write about and end up having to cut down, because these stories would have gone on a lot longer...

Thanks for coming to check out my blog!


Sunday, 5 February 2012

How About An Update?

Hey everyone! So yes...I didn't stick to my one-blog-every-week schedule... You can all cyber hit me now... >.<

Thank you Rachel for reminding to get back on it though!

I thought I would just update you all on what has been going on in my life so far!

Its been a really crazy last 4 months! We have moved to Abbotsford, and we absolutely LOVE our new place! It feels great to know that we own it, cause for the past 17 years of my life we've always rented.
Britteny and I were sitting in the car one day and wanted to count every single house we have ever lived in. So after going through every year of our lives, we calculated that we have lived in about 18-20 different houses, including this house that we just bought. It is absolutely CRAZY! I usually get bored of a  house after 6-9 months now... so I hope I don't get bored of this one!

Britteny and I have just started school, so we are really excited about that! Britteny is going to Abbotsford Christian, and I am homeschooling with Fraser Valley Distance Education School.
We both have missed about 2 years of school due to our family issues in the past, and just growing to not care about it anymore. I am really happy to say, after doing a test, that I am an average grade 12 student! Well, besides my math of course. =/
So I am doing adult courses with FVDES, and so far I have been doing alright!

Britteny is in grade 10, which is awesome! So she is really enjoying going to a school, besides having to wake up every morning at 6:30 am to catch the bus... But who really likes that anyway.

I really feel Gods blessings on me these past 4 months! But I know He has always been blessing me right from the beginning. Just now I feel I am noticing it more, and not taking any of it for granted.

I am in the process of buying some recording equipment. Thanks to everyone who helped out with buying my first midi interface! Now I just need to save up for a nice microphone! Definitely wanna take my time choosing the right one.

I have also been working really hard with two producers who found me on youtube! One of them is French and his name is Romy. He does more upbeat music you would hear on the radio. And the other is from Nashville, and his name is Jerry! He is actually the one who has signed me and is now my manager/producer. We have 13 months left to get me a under a record label!

I have been recording one song with Jerry which is almost ready to be sung in a studio and professionally mixed and mastered. So I am beyond excited for that! Then we have to come up with 3 more song ideas to record, then we can start sending out my "artist package" to a bunch of recording labels. 

Things are really pulling through for me. I still have to pinch myself every once in awhile to remind myself that it's not a dream!

I am working hard and praying everyday that this is His Will, and that I am following the right path.

Be praying for me as well that I keep to to my faith, and that I never lose who I am in the process of this all.

I hope to post another blog sometime next week on modesty! It's something that is very important to me, and I feel all girls should feel beautiful in their own skin no matter what!

Thank you so much for reading!!



Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Looking At The Past

Change can be fun! Change can be scary…
Change can be hard, or it can be easy. It all depends on what God decides for you…or what you decide to take into your own hands…

My whole life has been a whirlwind of change. My life has never been consistent. We were always moving, always changing, whether it be furniture,  cities, churches, hair, clothes, ideas, opinions, comfort zones… etc.

All I know is… change in my life has always been scary. It all seemed like we were just going down hill…nothing was gonna get better.

I am proud to say, the only consistent thing in my life, was my Lord and Saviour, and his gift of faith to believe! Though of course it was always a rocky road.

And guess what? MORE change has begun. But this is a new kind of change. Its a good change, and I know it!

But some part of me aches cause of my past. I am free! But why do I feel pain? I see flashbacks of my childhood all the time now, just in a different way...

It doesn't necessarily creep up on me in the middle of the night like your worst nightmare. But it's almost like…I miss my past. I want to go back and relive it! But why would I want to go back and relive such a terrible time?

I think its cause I never really had a normal childhood, and I want to go back and fix it, since now I have a stronger hold on life. But there is nothing to fix, because God intended for me to be here right now, writing this and living out my life the way it's been played out.

I am in no way unthankful! I am beyond blessed! I cry out to God in praise and humility every night…"I don't deserve this Lord. But honestly, we all deserve the worst…so I am beyond thankful! I fear you Lord, and I praise you!"

This is the first time in my entire life, where things are starting to be consistent. I feel consistent in my way of thinking. I am not swayed by others own opinions, or put down too easily. It would take me way too long to go through the list of how consistent my life is now… but it's getting better each and every day!

I was once living in a box, with a few streams of light shining through the little holes.

All of us are broken, and God is here to fix us. We just have to be honest with ourselves…

I feel God is calling me to share my story, help others who are in my once upon a time situation! But we all must trust in God, because He is writing our "Happily ever after"…

Psalm 62:6 "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken."

Stay tuned for my next Blog post about fashion! (Sorry boys…hehe)

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Relationships PART 3

(This is the last one I will be posting on Relationships...for now.)

Understanding Each Other:
If you are ever in a fight with someone, your reason for fighting in the first place and staying strong about it, is cause you want to be understood. And when that person won't, it breaks your heart. We want to be understood, why we do the thing we do, and why we say the things we say. There are always reasons behind every persons actions. Instead of lashing out at each other, listen to what the other has to say.

How powerful is the tongue, so full of words that praise God, but yet slander our brothers and sisters…

Have you been guilty of praising God, yet saying hurtful and ugly things to your spouse or even friends and family, with the same tongue?

Proverbs 10: 19-21
"When words abound, transgression is inevitable, but the one who restrains his words is wise. What the righteous say is like the best silver, but what the wicked think is of little value. The teaching of the righteous feeds many, but fools die for lack of wisdom."

James 4:1-2 "What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God."

Respect, Honesty, and Trust:
How do you expect to go far in a relationship without these three essentials?
If you do not trust your other half, it leads to not being honest with one other, and you slowly lose respect and trust, which then leads to fighting constantly and being irresponsible with each others sensitivities. We have no regards to the sense of well being and importance this person should hold in your life. So our only concerns then are that of our own. Accept one another for who you are, don't push one another to be someone you are not. Listen to each other even if you cannot understand the significance of their thoughts and opinions. Don't judge them by their outer body cause this always gives you the wrong picture of who someone really is.

And to be honest with one another means you share every detail, even if it means hurting their feelings. But we must always do it in a loving way. Even if it doesn't seem important to you, it might be important to them. And you always grow from it! When you are keeping something from your spouse, you have to deal with it by yourself everyday. But you shouldn't have to do that. Lay it down for them to see and you can help each other see new perspectives.

But if you cannot be honest with your spouse, this means you do not trust them.
If we cannot trust our other half with our thoughts or past actions, so that we don't hurt their feelings, and are willing to lie to keep it that way…you better be ready to keep a notebook so you can keep your lies straight. But how disrespectful is all of this lying when your intentions was not to hurt them in the first place…

Trust in a relationship is a tricky thing. If you have been hurt in the past cause you trusted someone, and every time, they broke it. You have been let down cause you put your trust in man. We are to have full trust in God first. And it falls back into having God as your #1. If you have been hurt and have trust issues, you need to know people will come and go, they will hurt you. But God will always be there, always watching, and will NEVER let you down. God is consistent, man is always changing.

Getting Wisdom from God:
Aren't we all searching for some kind of wisdom on this earth? Being wise in your own eyes is foolishness, cause we all know God's wisdom is more desirable. We cannot learn of God's wisdom in University and get a degree in it. It can only come in a right relationship with God and always seeking it! When the Holy Spirit dwells in our soul it will always lead us to truth. We must take time out of our busy schedule, to learn and practice Gods wisdom!

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path."

Proverbs 2:6-9 "For the Lord grants wisdom! From his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He grants a treasure of common sense to the honest. He is a shield to those who walk with integrity. He guards the paths of the just and protects those who are faithful to him. Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will find the right way to go."

Call on God for wisdom, and he will direct you on a righteous path.

My Conclusion:
There is this song I listen to a LOT by Brandon Heath called, "Love Never Fails".
It is the perfect song to go with my blog. Please listen to it and then read these bible verses (Youtube Video-Love Never Fails).

1 Corinthians 13:1-3
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
1 Corinthians 13:4–8a
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Before we can trust ourselves or others to take care of us one day, and for us to take care of them. We must love God first before anything else. Love ties in to everything I just wrote about. Love is the key. And I don't mean worldy love, I mean godly love. 

Don't be afraid to take chances, and live outside your comfort zone. God took a chance on you, and gave you life. Now what you will do with your life, is the main question...

Everything I have written in this blog, is knowledge and experience I have gained, I am just learning to apply it. I am not perfect, and will always make mistakes… But I am always trusting that God will pick me up afterwards, because He cares for me. Jesus, His only son, died on the cross because He loves me that much. And He loves you just as equally!

I would love to hear from you guys on what you think and if this has helped you in ANY way. 

Thank you all SO much for reading, it seriously means a lot!

Take care,

God Bless!


Thursday, 29 September 2011

Relationships PART 2

God Is My First Love:
I remind myself as much as possible…"God comes first before anything else!" The same goes with relationships. If God is your first love and you try your best to put Him first, that is completely awesome! If you can honestly say almost every choice you make, God is involved, and you cannot be moved by others mean remarks, or harsh criticism, and you always remember the only judgment that can move you or change you, is God, you are well ahead! Keep your eyes on Him as we try and walk a straight line.

Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Romans 12:2 "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."

We Want to Love as God Loves Us:
Our relationship should reflect God's relationship with us and the church. Our love is supposed to look like God's love. Of course we are not perfect, and we should never judge someone if they do not completely show it themselves. But we can guide one another to do our best. God's love never runs dry!

Ephesians 5: 1- 2 "Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."

1 John 4:8 "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
Psalm 117:2 "For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD." 
It's Marriage Or Nothing:

We see SO many young people getting into relationships now a days, with no true understanding of what it means to be in a relationship in the first place!

I have always wanted to ask a young couple walking down the street or just anywhere, "What does a true and pure relationship mean to you?" But of course I could never do that. So I usually just guess what they would say.

One thing I am going to ask my kids one day, when they start talking about girls/boys that they like, and how they see other young people around them in relationships, I will say, "Do you want to marry them one day?"

And if they answer with, "Oh no! I am too young to be thinking about that right now. I have no idea if they are even the one!"
I will gladly reply, "Then you are too young to be even thinking about having a relationship!"

Another quote from Pastor Nelson:
"You don't need to kiss a bunch of toads to find your handsome prince."

It is marriage or nothing! If you are in a relationship right now and you have no intention of marriage, or just haven't thought about it, I would encourage you to slow down and really think and talk about your current situation. Ask yourself," do I need to move on and get out of this relationship before it's too late?" It is sinful to be taking advantage of each other to fulfill your own needs, and the satisfaction of being loved. We are to get that from God first.

But if you deprive yourself of sinful indulgences, and you do not replace it with a godly alternative, chances are, you will fall even worse then you did before…

Matthew 26:41"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."

Ecclesiastes 11:9 "Rejoice, O young man, in your youth, and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth;
Walk in the ways of your heart, and in the sight of your eyes; But know that for all these God will bring you into judgment."
Ephesians 5:3-5 "But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people. Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a person is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God."

Love and Forgiveness:
We KNOW this is important, but again, we must learn to apply it everyday... 

Matthew 6:14-15 "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."
Proverbs 17:9
Love prospers when a fault is forgiven, but dwelling on it separates close friends.
Matthew 22:37–39
Jesus said to him, 'You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.' This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'
We Get Our Joy From God First
Now this falls under the same category of being complete and not fulfilling your own needs. Let God be your joy! Praise him everyday for putting a roof over your head, for providing food for your family. Laugh at the moment you get a flat tire. God did it for a reason, and we need to praise him for it.
Romans 8:28-29 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters."

Die To Self Daily:
Literally every morning you wake up, you should remind yourself that you are a sinner, and what things you need to work on. It's always good to keep perspective, know who you are as a person, and be humble. In order to die to self, you must put God first, then you second. We must always challenge ourselves! 

1 John 2: 1-6
"My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world. And by this we know that we have come to know him, if we keep his commandments. Whoever says "I know him" but does not keep his commandments is a liar, and the truth is not in him, but whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him: whoever says he abides in him ought to walk in the same way in which he walked."


I could go on and on with this subject! But I will try and keep it simple…

This is SO important in a relationship. If you want to move ahead in life, you need this essential!

You must pay close attention to each other and listen! In other must be on the same page!

I read a good example online once about how communication in any kind of relationship is like a life giving river. When we cannot communicate, it builds a dam that stops the flow of water. This causes everything around it to suffer and slowly die. Seeds that were once planted cannot grow, and both people develop a strong thirst for their unmet needs, eventually causing cracks throughout the relationship.

MANY relationships fall through the cracks simply because of a lack of communication.

We may speak with people everyday, but true communication is entirely more personal. This is critical for growth in a relationship.

Proverbs 18:13
"To answer before listening, that is folly and shame."

James 1:19-20 "My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires."

Part 3 will be up in a few days!!

Monday, 26 September 2011

Relationships PART 1

I meant to post this a while ago, but it was getting REALLY long and a bit overwhelming. I have decided to split it up into parts! So bear with me.

Part 2 will be posted in a few days.

You hear girls say this a lot, or maybe you don't, and I am the only one… hehe.

"There are not many good Christian men out there for us girls to choose from!"

But what about the guys perspective? What do you think they are saying about women these days?

Have you ever considered the possibility that WE, meaning us girls, need to work on our own Christian life as well?

How are you supposed to be responsible with someone else's life when you are not able to be responsible for your own?

We need to focus on being that godly woman that we need to be, rather than trying to find that godly man, AND the same with the guys! They don't get out of it that easily…

Don't lower your standards! God has high standards for us, and we should too!

A great quote from our Pastor, Larry Nelson:

"It's better to be single, then to wish that you were."

God would rather have us see what we can put INTO a relationship, not what we can get OUT of a relationship.

There are two kinds of relationships out there! A worldly one, and a Godly one.

We will start with what a worldly relationship looks like:

  • We are in it to fulfill our own needs
  • We want them to complete us as a whole
  • We want to love and feel loved
  • There are no boundaries to keep you from sinning
  • We have no discretion
  • We don't care how others are affected
  • Wise in our own eyes
  • The world's love is always performance-based

What a Godly relationship looks like:

  • We are in it to fulfill God's plan
  • We are already complete as a person because we find our identity in Jesus Christ
  • God is your first love and foundation
  • We want to love others as God loves us
  • Your family relationships are healthy
  • It's marriage or nothing
  • Love and forgiveness
  • We get our joy from God first
  • Die to self daily
  • Healthy communication 
  • Understanding of each other
  • Respect
  • Honesty
  • Trust
  • Getting Wisdom from God
One life lesson I learned growing up, was applying the knowledge I got from others, to my daily life.

As young teens, who are starting to become independent, we are told over and over, don't do this, don't do that, God loves you, we love you, read your bible, don't fall into sin, stay close to the church, etc.

Of course I would say "Ya ya, I know!" I could tell everyone of this knowledge and advice that I received from family and friends very well, but, no one ever sat me down and asked me how I was applying it to my life. I know if someone did…I would have been at a loss for words.

We like to think that knowledge is enough…

Christian #1:"I have read EVERY book in the bible, I know EVERY story and EVERY parable Jesus spoke to the people!"

Christian #2: "Wow! I am VERY impressed. So tell me…how are you applying it to your life? What are you getting from all this knowledge?"

We tend to take what we know for granted. If we were applying God's word to our lives daily…why do we always make such big mistakes and not learn from them? God is trying to make us apply this knowledge!

I want to go through every point I just brought up thoroughly.

Fulfilling Gods Plan:
When we get into a relationship, it should be for God. This is the way He intended it. To have one for ourselves, does not hold us accountable for our actions. If we are not doing what God calls us to do, then we obviously are fully aware that we are going against Him.

Here is an example: If you were driving along the same road everyday, and you were just sick and tired of following everyone else, and obeying the same rules, and you just wanted to make a change and go against the traffic, you obviously are aware that you are driving towards oncoming cars!  You made this decision, and now your life is in danger!

We must fulfill God's plan in our lives and not go against Him! 

AND to add a bonus…God's plan is WAY better then any plan us humans,  could ever come up with.
Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."

Ephesians 5:8-11 "For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them."
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” 

Being Complete as a Whole:
I have also learned that being complete as a person means I cannot and should not be in a relationship, unless GOD has completed me first. We need to stop looking and start praying! I have heard many stories from people who say, "The moment I stopped looking, was the moment God knew I was ready, and finally introduced me to my future spouse." When we are looking instead of praying that God will show us the way, we have the desire in our hearts to want,  instead of wanting to wait. So, you need to ask yourself, "Am I searching for myself, or for God?" If you still have not found your future spouse, God must be doing that for a reason. Something needs to happen in your life before you are ready, and maybe He is still preparing that future spouse as well!

Now you'll just have to wait for part 2...
God Bless!