Looking At The Past

Change can be fun! Change can be scary…

Change can be hard, or it can be easy. It all depends on what God decides for you…or what you decide to take into your own hands…

My whole life has been a whirlwind of change. My life has never been consistent. We were always moving, always changing, whether it be furniture,  cities, churches, hair, clothes, ideas, opinions, comfort zones… etc.

All I know is… change in my life has always been scary. It all seemed like we were just going down hill…nothing was gonna get better.

I am proud to say, the only consistent thing in my life, was my Lord and Saviour, and his gift of faith to believe! Though of course it was always a rocky road.

And guess what? MORE change has begun. But this is a new kind of change. Its a good change, and I know it!

But some part of me aches cause of my past. I am free! But why do I feel pain? I see flashbacks of my childhood all the time now, just in a different way...

It doesn't necessarily creep up on me in the middle of the night like your worst nightmare. But it's almost like…I miss my past. I want to go back and relive it! But why would I want to go back and relive such a terrible time?

I think its cause I never really had a normal childhood, and I want to go back and fix it, since now I have a stronger hold on life. But there is nothing to fix, because God intended for me to be here right now, writing this and living out my life the way it's been played out.

I am in no way unthankful! I am beyond blessed! I cry out to God in praise and humility every night…"I don't deserve this Lord. But honestly, we all deserve the worst…so I am beyond thankful! I fear you Lord, and I praise you!"

This is the first time in my entire life, where things are starting to be consistent. I feel consistent in my way of thinking. I am not swayed by others own opinions, or put down too easily. It would take me way too long to go through the list of how consistent my life is now… but it's getting better each and every day!

I was once living in a box, with a few streams of light shining through the little holes.

All of us are broken, and God is here to fix us. We just have to be honest with ourselves…

I feel God is calling me to share my story, help others who are in my once upon a time situation! But we all must trust in God, because He is writing our "Happily ever after"…

Psalm 62:6 "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken."

Stay tuned for my next Blog post about fashion! (Sorry boys…hehe)

Relationships PART 3

(This is the last one I will be posting on Relationships...for now.)

Understanding Each Other:

If you are ever in a fight with someone, your reason for fighting in the first place and staying strong about it, is cause you want to be understood. And when that person won't, it breaks your heart. We want to be understood, why we do the thing we do, and why we say the things we say. There are always reasons behind every persons actions. Instead of lashing out at each other, listen to what the other has to say.

How powerful is the tongue, so full of words that praise God, but yet slander our brothers and sisters…

Have you been guilty of praising God, yet saying hurtful and ugly things to your spouse or even friends and family, with the same tongue?

Proverbs 10: 19-21

"When words abound, transgression is inevitable, but the one who restrains his words is wise. What the righteous say is like the best silver, but what the wicked think is of little value. The teaching of the righteous feeds many, but fools die for lack of wisdom."

James 4:1-2 "What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God."

Respect, Honesty, and Trust:

How do you expect to go far in a relationship without these three essentials?

If you do not trust your other half, it leads to not being honest with one other, and you slowly lose respect and trust, which then leads to fighting constantly and being irresponsible with each others sensitivities. We have no regards to the sense of well being and importance this person should hold in your life. So our only concerns then are that of our own. Accept one another for who you are, don't push one another to be someone you are not. Listen to each other even if you cannot understand the significance of their thoughts and opinions. Don't judge them by their outer body cause this always gives you the wrong picture of who someone really is.

And to be honest with one another means you share every detail, even if it means hurting their feelings. But we must always do it in a loving way. Even if it doesn't seem important to you, it might be important to them. And you always grow from it! When you are keeping something from your spouse, you have to deal with it by yourself everyday. But you shouldn't have to do that. Lay it down for them to see and you can help each other see new perspectives.

But if you cannot be honest with your spouse, this means you do not trust them.

If we cannot trust our other half with our thoughts or past actions, so that we don't hurt their feelings, and are willing to lie to keep it that way…you better be ready to keep a notebook so you can keep your lies straight. But how disrespectful is all of this lying when your intentions was not to hurt them in the first place…

Trust in a relationship is a tricky thing. If you have been hurt in the past cause you trusted someone, and every time, they broke it. You have been let down cause you put your trust in man. We are to have full trust in God first. And it falls back into having God as your #1. If you have been hurt and have trust issues, you need to know people will come and go, they will hurt you. But God will always be there, always watching, and will NEVER let you down. God is consistent, man is always changing.

Getting Wisdom from God:

Aren't we all searching for some kind of wisdom on this earth? Being wise in your own eyes is foolishness, cause we all know God's wisdom is more desirable. We cannot learn of God's wisdom in University and get a degree in it. It can only come in a right relationship with God and always seeking it! When the Holy Spirit dwells in our soul it will always lead us to truth. We must take time out of our busy schedule, to learn and practice Gods wisdom!

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path."

Proverbs 2:6-9 "For the Lord grants wisdom! From his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He grants a treasure of common sense to the honest. He is a shield to those who walk with integrity. He guards the paths of the just and protects those who are faithful to him. Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will find the right way to go."

Call on God for wisdom, and he will direct you on a righteous path.

My Conclusion:

There is this song I listen to a LOT by Brandon Heath called, "Love Never Fails".

It is the perfect song to go with my blog. Please listen to it and then read these bible verses (Youtube Video-Love Never Fails).

1 Corinthians 13:1-3
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

1 Corinthians 13:4–8a
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Before we can trust ourselves or others to take care of us one day, and for us to take care of them. We must love God first before anything else. Love ties in to everything I just wrote about. Love is the key. And I don't mean worldy love, I mean godly love. 

Don't be afraid to take chances, and live outside your comfort zone. God took a chance on you, and gave you life. Now what you will do with your life, is the main question...

Everything I have written in this blog, is knowledge and experience I have gained, I am just learning to apply it. I am not perfect, and will always make mistakes… But I am always trusting that God will pick me up afterwards, because He cares for me. Jesus, His only son, died on the cross because He loves me that much. And He loves you just as equally!

I would love to hear from you guys on what you think and if this has helped you in ANY way. 

Thank you all SO much for reading, it seriously means a lot!

Take care,

God Bless!

~Destiny~